Our morning started off with tornado and severe weather warnings. So instead of going through my normal routine and taking a barre class, I went for a quick 2 mile run on our treadmill. Admittedly, our treadmill has not been touched since we moved in! It got me thinking about how my routine has drastically changed and how I long to get back to “doing me.”
I find myself these days claiming that I was a marathoner in a past life. Since having issues conceiving because of my low weight (associated with my high mileage running), I have put my passion for running on the back burner. I realized that there are more important things in life than running–such as having a family, but I truly miss the sport and passion that went along with it.
I struggle with my desire to get back into running and even lose a few lbs, with the desire to have more children. I know that I want to have more babies, but I have been itching to sign up for a race and actually put my running shoes to good use! There is no right answer and Lord only knows if I will have issues in the future conceiving or not. So right now, I am going to take more of a “you do you” approach and listen to my heart when it comes to my fitness (and life in general).
It is important to me, that my son grows up knowing that he is a unique individual and that he can do whatever he sets his mind to. While having him was the biggest desire that I had (and getting married to the man of my dreams!), I had to change my lifestyle in order to make it happen. I would not change it for anything, but now I have the opportunity to regroup and focus on my next goal–getting my passion back for running! I have a feeling that this time it will be even more special because I will have a little assistant and cheerleader along for the ride (in the stroller that is!). Okay preaching over!
Have a great one and safe out there 🙂